I've been so focused on my personal journaling that I have forgotten about my blog, please forgive me...
This is an attempt to sum up four months of posts in one...
Famani si'i is 4 going on 21...he's smart, articulate, friendly, hyper as ever, he loves to eat, loves his TV shows, still loves to read, loves to meet new people and play with total strangers, decided that during the winter his favorite place in the world would be the park, loves testing my last nerve, loves being his Dad's shadow, loves holding conversations with me like we're the same age, still loves hugs, is still a Mama's boy, enjoys playing video games more than toys, unless someone else wants his toys then he is ALL about his toys. He's growing physically WAYYY too fast for our wallets which is why most of his pants are floods. His little brain is too advanced for his own good, he still corrects us when we're rude, he told his Grandma (my Mom) the other day that being humble means she has to talk nicely to Grandpa...and we love every second of it...even when he's driving us both bananas.
Hubby and I are doing great and have more time together as a family since moving back to Utah. That has been awesome. We have always loved focusing on our little family and trying to focus on things that truly matter and make a difference in life. We have been so thankful for the blessings the Lord gives us and we are learning to enjoy them a little more and not just tuck them away for a rainy day.
Life is life at the moment, we love the great parts about it and decide to put the negative trash in the garbage where it belongs. I have no room in my life for people or situations that will bring me or my little family down. I have learned in the last four months that after you do all that you can even with good intentions always in your heart, ungrateful, selfish, rude, full of themselves, ta'e mahino people will always be just that. I can't control them, I can't change them. I can only control how I react and how I choose to go forward. So my little family chooses to go forward...and you know what the funny thing is...Heavenly Father always provides a way...even when there are people rooting that you will fall on your face...He has always opened a door and given us exactly what we need when we need it most. That's why I know that no matter what, if I am right with God...He will take care of my family. And when I say right, I don't mean self righteously right. I mean just being a good person and bettering myself and my family each day. Because until the day I wake up perfect (which will be NEVER) I can never stop working on being a genuine human being.
Certain experiences have left our hearts bruised but we will forgive and our little family will move on. We feel blessed in the things that matter...not in money, not in posessions, not in how exciting our weekend is, or how many friends we have on FB or Twitter, or how many tasks we check off our list in a day. The blessings are in real relationships, and in people who love us at our absolutely poorest, ugliest and worst, it's in having appreciation in our hearts for what we have and knowing without a doubt we did not attain them but by the grace of a loving Father in Heaven.
